Mold Theory

I was talking to one of my best guy-friends the other day when he mentioned to me that he was going to propose to the girl he has been going out with for a while.
So far, he is about the third one in my #Squad who's about to enter in a relationship and inevitably, that makes you think.
I'm not bitter nor sad about it, I'm perfectly happy with my life right now, it's just weird sometimes because I can't seem to relate. 

For the past few months and until a couple back I had been going out with different guys, but non of them seemed to be a match. At first I thought that had something to do with me, but after one of my friends gave me an insight into his perspective and I had multiple coffee dates with one of my other besties, I came up with a theory.
He told me that he didn't expect to see me in a relationship any time soon, because he says that I'm one of those people who have a mold.
Like... a cookie mold? Well yeah I have tons but.... What?
At first I felt a little insulted, but then he carried on by saying that he thought that I knew what I wanted.
I realized that the problem wasn't exactly me ( I'm not saying that I'm perfect, I'm just not making myself a martyr) but the fact that I got carried away by a bunch of good fatures from the past few prospects to then get dissapointed by their lack of commitment, ex-issues, ambiguity or any other red flag I had previously been to mesmerized to see.  
And so, I came to the conclusion that I'm ok. It's not that I'm looking for the perfect guy, it's just that I shouldn't be too igger to fill the mold with anything that "might" be good. 
Should people have tons of short relationships and experiences or just a few memorable ones...?
That's a question each one of us should answer individualy, but at least for me... Someone who tends to be attached, I think that quality over quantity is best. Memorable experiences and connections over too many that are too blip. 
So, maybe I should just keep focussing on my goals and quite literally wait for THE one.

Giotto Calendoli & Patricia Manfield at Milan Fashion Week

When I think of a relationship I think about deep conections. I think about wanting to be with a person as much I'd like to go shopping or even more. I'm not being superficial, I'm merely trying to define the passion and desire to be close that I imagine.
I wonder how so many people can be in a relationship and not be excited...
Like, what's the point? How is it that you can be with someone you know has so many aspects that annoy you, that you are not able to see a future with them? Why are you in a relationship that doesn't add any thrill or excitement to your life? Or even worse, why are you with someone while craving someone else?
That's like buying a pair of itchy shoes you like but know you'll be unable to wear, or a pair of crocs which are just comfy, or in the worse case scenario, a pair of sneakers when all you want it's heels.
I think that if you find yourself in any of those situations, you should really re-think your relationship status.

Paradoxically enough and in the search of answears I turned to the most loyal of companions: Netflix (just kidding) But seriously tough, I've been watching too many chick flicks to know that getting into that comfort zone is quite the average situation for many.
After murdering John James Preston several times in my mind with a pair of Manolos (Sex & The City) and finding peace among pearls & diamonds (Breakfast at Tiffany's), I found a letter written in Verona that pretty much summed up my idea of love...

" .... What and if are two words as nonthreatening as words can be, but put together, side by side, and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life.
What if? What if? What if?  
If it is true love what you feel, or  felt, then it’s never too late. If you've found someone who you care about, who's company you cherish, who shares with you hopes, dreams, fears and insecurities, whom you can picture a future with, whom you consider beautiful and makes you wonder what your life would be without them...  Someone you wouldn't want to lose, I must say that you're in love. Maybe you haven't notice, maybe you feel that it is not the right time nor the right way to feel regarding your life right now However... What if your wonder what it would have been for the rest of your life?        You only need the courage to follow your heart.
I don’t know what love like Juliet’s feels like, a love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for, but I’d like to believe, if ever I were to feel it, that I’d have the courage to seize it. And Claire if you didn’t, I hope one day that you will."  
- Sophie to Claire, Letters to Juliet
According to Carrie Bradshaw there are two types of decisions you can make in life: the ones you make with the brain and the ones you make with your heart. You can analize as much as you want, but in the end everything will be defined by a moment where your heart will make a choice. Everything will be defined by a spark.
I do have a mold beside me, and I've finally realized that I'm not looking to fill it any time soon, it's not about waiting for the perfect person, it's just about not trying to squeez anybody for the sake of it.
You know... It's better to leave those gladiator tigh high pumps up in the shelf at Jimmy Choo instead of risking it, some of us have big feet..and standards (and that right there was a forced metaphor) and need to learn how to live with them .


The no kissing list

Well, today was finally the beginning of the inevitable.
Those terrifying exams I've been studying for like crazy, started today.
And after 4 days without any vitamin D, hidden in the frozen tundra that has become my room for this past few weeks, I finally have about 24 hours to rest... Only before studying for spanish of course, but nobody needs to bring that negativity into the conversation right now.
I came back home after five hours of analyzing an archaic theather play in German, just to eat and turn my brain off with a good movie.
I got to my room, took a dive under my sheets and turned on netflix in the search of some good old Chick-flick for relaxing purpouses, and in the swarm of titles, I found one that caught my attention called "Ely & Naomi's No Kissing List"
I basically thought that I was in for some dummie teenage drama, but as a matter of fact I ended up having a realization and crying myself into this beautiful blog.
Story short, the movie is about a pair of boy & girl besties (he is gay tough) who have lived as next-door-neighbors in the same building their entire life.
They have the most enviable bond, know each other like the back of their own hand, go to Magnolia Bakery together, have a secret room for them to chit chat about everything, etc etc. They basically root for each other and stick with each other through thick and thin and have even plan their future wedding, which of course will never be... Because both of them bat for the same team, even if Naomi refuses to believe it.
Thing is, they are too close. And have this moments where one gets friend-jealousies over the other's tentative plus one or gets angry because their schedules no longer match because of University, dates and well.. Life in general.
They get into a huge fight about it, but in the end return to being good Friends realizing, that they are just where they need to be.
I'm not even gonna bother to cover the fact that I felt kind of jealouse of their relationship, 'cause every girl need a standfort, right?
But on the other hand it finally dawned on me the fact that this fantasy of the "Squad" or the group of frieds you have at certain stages of your life is actually just that... A stage. A fantasy.
I once read a quote that really stuck to my mind which said, that if you are not losing friends, you are not growing up. And that's true, isn't it?
There are people who become really important at certain stages of your life, but will at some point maybe not leave you, but follow their own path.
I feel like sometimes the heart needs a little more time to accept what the brain already knows. And now I know.
I know and hope that my friends will remain my friends for a long long time. I'd like to believe the fantasy in which I get to invite them to my wedding and years after that our kids meet and become friends (ok, I got a little carried away here) it's true. But thinking a little less ahead, I'd like to think they'll be there rooting for me when I'm applying to Collegue, or I'll be there for them planning their proposals to their girlfriends and so on.. But every single one of this acts are steps in new paths not everyone will follow.
Each one of us will eventually start a new life, a new relationship or a new friendship where the others will not jump into, not because they don't want to, but because it's just not their place.

I hope that after an inevitable separation, we meet again and like people who once meant a lot to each other ...
"comes a fine recapitulation of the past where they remember only the best, forgetting it was picked out from a time of ordinaries, forgetting that the ordinariness was pleasant but now a beautiful memory.." -F. Scott Fitzgerald.
To all my beautiful friends...
I love you, and I know we still have a few months ahead of us, but it might be time, for me at least, to finally come at peace with the fact that we are... Growing up.

Much love,


Pretty little things...

Estaba pensando en un platica que tuve una vez con la entonces editora en jefe de la revista Elle México, Mari Paz Ocejo, quien me dijo que para armar looks nuevos y darle buen uso a su ropa, literalmente jugaba con ella.
Elemental , ¿no?
No se ustedes, pero yo me sentí identificada en el momento.
¿Quién no ha sacado la ropa de su closet para ponerse a armar combinaciones, proyectarse a ocasiones cercanas en las que pretende usar el look, bailar frente al espejo para ver como se mueve una falda, probar si los zapatos son cómodos, sacar ese alter ego al que evoca un escote pronunciado o una falda entallada, o incluso solo moverse sin sentido en confianza con nuestro reflejo para ver hasta que punto puedes alocarte con un side boob sin perder el estilo?

¿No?... ¿No les pasa? Bueno pues aunque me crean una loca... A mí sí.
Es como mi guilty pleasure. Incluso debo admitir que probablemente lo hago más seguido de lo que debería y sin embargo no puedo negar que me fascina. No solo porque creo diferentes outfits o me desconecto un poco de la rutina, sino porque literalmente me gusta ponerme mi ropa.

Suena raro y hasta un poco obsesivo, pero hace unos días me di cuenta de que todos deberíamos de sentirnos así.
La semana pasada, estaba en un curso de familiarización para presentar un examen que tengo en unos días... Una de las actividades constaba en media hora para contestar preguntas individualmente antes de empezar a revisarlas en conjunto.
Como acabé un poco antes y del cansancio ya la vista no me daba para ponerme a leer o trabajar en el celular, me puse a juguetear con uno de mis anillos.
Debo mencionar que no se trata de un anillo cualquiera. Es un anillo que recibí como regalo de cumpleaños de mis padres cuando cumplí 15 y uso diario desde hace cuatro años.
Ahí lo tenía, entre mis dedos, cuando después de observarlo con mucha atención, me di cuenta de que me parecía extraordinariamente hermoso. Se trata de una sortija con un diamante engarzado en el centro. Una sortija que me pongo todos los días en el anular de la mano derecha, que es parte de mi rutina, y que sin embargo no me había puesto a ver con atención
De verdad, como si nunca lo hubiera visto, fue una revelación.
Entonces me puse a pensar...
Todo el tiempo estamos buscando comprar la última tendencia o adquirir esa pieza que nos quita el sueño... Pero nunca nos ponemos a ver las cosas que ya tenemos para darnos cuenta de por que nos enamoraron en un principio.
De una u otra manera esto me hizo sentir completa. Yo no compro ropa para agradarle a los demás o levantar suspiros, yo compro cosas que me hacen sentir bien y que me gustan. Que me levantan el animo y me dan confianza.
Por lo tanto, no creo que tenga nada de malo que juegue con mi ropa o pase algunos minutos de mi tiempo libre observando su belleza; sus acabados, costuras, texturas, olores y colores que las caracterizan.
Asi como un niño pequeño puede pasar horas jugando con sus muñecos de acción y se maravilla de cada uno de los detalles que lo conforman, ¿Tu ya has jugado con tu ropa?



The Side

While a deep plunge neckline may have become a bit over the top this days, side cuts are the new hot trend as a way to give a little tasteful sensuality to your look.
Even tough there's no way this could possibly be more controversial than the "free the nipple" campaign or a cleaveage down to your belly button, more than one men in my life has politely asked me to "cover up" when sporting one of this to avoid a cold. (This goes to my bestfriends who wouldn't shut up about it) But, why would I ever want to do that?
When Side boobs should be celebrated for their glorious ability to be both sexy yet elegant, providing the perfect counterbalance to a modest high neck or maxi skirt while remaining romantic and leaving room to the imagination RED CARPET STYLE...
I found this amazing side boob top while walking around Hollywood Boulevard a few months ago in LA and tought I could pair it with everything from a pair of high waisted black jeans a la Bella Hadid to a gorgeous maxi skirt like this one from La Rue de la Paix I wore to the Editorial Advisor Gala dinner from the Reforma newspaper on December last year.
The best is that it is unexpected. May seem like your outfit is as normal as it gets until you turn to the side and reveal some skin followed by some surprised looks and gasps for air as you effortless and casually walk away.
The key to wear it is nothing but attitude. Maria Felix confidence and Marylin's flirty look as if you had your PJ's on...


Project R

Pues ya, cumplí 19.
Y a diferencia de los 18, que a parte se me pasaron volando, ahora si sentí un cambio.
O tal vez no es la edad, sino la eclosión de un cambio que poco a poco se ha ido gestando.
Extrañamente ando muy Zen, algo que nunca pensé que pasaría, siendo un persona cuyo humor suele normalmente estar dirigido a la negatividad/realista y sin embargo heme aquí.

Necesitaba tiempo para pensar a donde va dirigido este proyecto y en general que es lo que quiero. Escucho a mucha gente decir que hay que fluir con la corriente, pero pienso que hay que fluir hacia algo... Hay que plantearse una meta para no quedar a la deriva en el punto no deseado. ¿No creen?
Hoy empieza mi año oficialmente ( porque regreso a la escuela...)
Un 2016 al que le veo mucho futuro y que ya no me aterra tanto como solía hacerlo.
Todavía no me hago a la idea de que me quedan solo 5 meses en el Colegio con la gente a la que conozco desde hace 16 años y suelo ver todos los días. Los odie o los ame han sido parte de mi vida desde siempre y no se como será seguir sin ellos. Pero pensando en esto, también creo que un nuevo comienzo puede ser algo bueno.
Es la mejor oportunidad para reinventarte y convertirte en la persona que quieres ser. Suena cliché, pero definitivamente se puede. Solía ser alguien que necesitaba decir lo que pensaba siempre, pero ahora trato de pensar antes de hablar y realmente analizar si vale la pena. Hay cosas que debemos dejar pasar; pensar si en 10 años nos va a importar y si no... Dejar ir.
¿De que sirve decirle a alguien que esta en lo incorrecto si no tiene la consciencia o sensatez para aceptarlo? Solo nos crearemos fricciones sin ningún beneficio. Mal Karma and karma is a bitch so ¿por que lo querría en mi vida?
Aplica lo mismo para todas aquellas personas venenosas que nos rodean.
Miente todo aquel que dice que las personas hacen cosas para lastimarnos. La gente actúa de muchas maneras, pero somos nosotros los que decidimos si nos afecta o no. Yo ya decidí hace mucho tiempo que los amigos se miden en calidad y no en cantidad así que ... Bye Bye..
Estuve leyendo mucho estas vacaciones. Entre los títulos que elegía había varias sátiras de Guadalupe Loaeza, algunos libros de Lagerfeld y de Shoppenhauer que me hicieron darme cuenta de que hoy en día nuestra vida carece de 2 cosas: Lujo e integridad.
Nos maravillamos con los viejos buenos tiempos porque había brillo, lujo, glamour, valores, caballerosidad, etc. Que al parecer hemos perdido.
Toda mi vida he querido ser así. Una persona integra que lleve una vida lujosa, pero con esto no me refiero a cosas caras sino a tener la libertad de hacer lo que quiera, sin deberle nada a nadie, enfocándome en mis asuntos sin meterme en los de los demás.
Coco Chanel dijo alguna vez, que la vida no se trata de la apariencia, sino de la esencia. No se trata del dinero sino de la educación ni mucho menos de la ropa, sino de la clase con la que uno se conduzca.
A mis 19 años me he dado cuenta de que quiero que esas sean las bases de mi vida. Independientemente de todas las cosas que quiero hacer y las metas que quiero cumplir, quiero ser alguien que se sienta orgullosa de si misma, amable, responsable, considerada, con la seguridad para decir NO cuando sea necesario y el espíritu para decir SI y salir de su zona de confort.
Quiero encontrar balance tanto físico como emocional bajo esos principios. Y por ende ser feliz por la persona que soy y el circulo del que me rodeo, conformado únicamente por aquellos que lo valen.. y que darían tanto por ti como tu por ellos.
Suena mucho mejor pasar el tiempo con gente que sigue la misma filosofía a estar lidiando con las tonterías de otros, ¿no creen?
Bonito lunes...

Well, I turned 19.And unlike the 18, which in part is I flew, now if I felt a change.Or maybe it is not the age but the emergence of a change that has gradually been building.I'm very Zen, something I never thought would happen, being a person whose humor is usually normally be directed to the negativity and yet here I am.He needed time to think where this project is aimed at large that is what I want. I hear many people say that we must go with the flow but I think we have to flow into something ... a goal to avoid being adrift in the unwanted point must be raised.My year officially begins today. A 2016 that I see a great future and no longer terrifies me as much as I used to.I still can not do to the idea that I have left only five months in the College with the people I've known for 16 years and usually see every day. Love them or hate them have been part of my life for as long as it will not be without them. But thinking about this, I also believe that a new beginning can be a good thing.It is the best opportunity to reinvent yourself and become the person you want to be. It sounds cliche, but you can definitely. It used to be someone who needed to say what I always thought, but now I try to think before speaking and really analyze whether it is worth. There are things to be missed; wonder if in 10 years we are importing and if not ... let go.What good to tell someone who is in the wrong if no consciousness or wisdom to accept it? We only create friction with no benefit. Karma and bad karma is a bitch so why would it in my life?The same applies to all those poisonous people around us. It is incredible that people do things to hurt us. People act in many ways, but we are the ones who decide whether or not it affects us. I already decided long ago that friends are measured in quality and not quantity so ... Bye Bye ..I read many things this holiday season, including several satires of Guadalupe Loaeza, some books Shoppenhauer Lagerfeld and that made me realize that our life today lacks two things: Luxury and integrity.We marvel at the good old days because there was glitter, luxury, glamor, values, chivalry, etc. Apparently we have lost.All my life I wanted to be. A person integrates leading a luxurious life, but with this I do not mean expensive but to be free to do whatever he wants things without owing anything to anyone, focusing on my business without getting into those of others.Coco Chanel once said that life is not the appearance but the essence. It is not about money but about education, much less clothing, but the kind with which one is driving.In my 19 years I have noticed that want those are the foundations of my life. Regardless of all the things I want to do and the goals I want to accomplish, I want to be someone who feels proud of herself, kind, responsible, thoughtful, security to say NO when necessary and spirit to say YES and exit your comfort zone.I find both physical and emotional balance under these principles. And therefore be happy with the person I am and the circle of surrounding me, made only by those who are worth it .. and you would therefore like you for them.It sounds much better to spend time with people who follow the same philosophy to be dealing with the other nonsense, is not it?
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